Link: Half Asian Self Hate
I just read the above blog post which really resonated with how I feel. As I replied in my blog post, I think in American culture and even Asian culture more broadly, Western Euro or “White” characteristics are privileged. I myself have tried to accentuate my more White traits over my Asian traits, including avoiding the sun more to keep my skin lighter and bleaching my hair blonde every so often (which I am not the only Asian person to do- In fact there are even skin creams that are sold in the Asian market to help “lighten” the skin – and a parallel phenomenon happening in the black community with skin bleaching). i think a lot of this has to do with the socialization of the superiority of whites in society. Everything from growing up to playing with Blonde Barbie Dolls and seeing the American Symbols of Blonde Beauty like Marilyn Monroe, Britney Spears, Madonna, Taylor Swift – the American Sweet Hearts. Even in Asian communities, like in anime, main characters are white washed – such as Super Saiyans in Dragon Ball (they turn super to blonde hair blue eyed characters!), Sailor Moon (the princess/leader of the Sailor Scouts – who is white), Naruto (who is the main character in his self entitled anime – blonde hair blue eyes also), and Ichigo from Bleach (who is a redhead…not blonde but certainly not Asian).
When it comes to my romantic person life, this affected me in terms of how I date. I use to exclusively date white men and would constantly reject dating offers from Asian men, even though they were nice and probably great guys, all because there is a certain prestige associated with dating whites. It made me feel more assimilated into American society. In my mind, the end goal was always to marry a white man and have the 2.5 kids, house and white picket fence. I have been labeled as a “race traitor” and a “self hater” as a result. I don’t want to feel this way and I know it is wrong, but how can you fight how you feel, especially when you are bombarded with daily reminders and reinforcements of the dominant white culture? I think the image below demonstrates really how messed up the situation is and the sad part is, its quite accurate.